Chapter 541
Elysia gathered her thoughts, her expression turning more serious. "Have you ever considered that what you feel for Elijah's mom might not be love? Maybe you just want to make amends, and making amends isn't the same as loving someone."
Tarquin furrowed his brow. "Elijah told you about his mom and me?"
"...Yeah."
With a furrowed brow and a craving for a cigarette - which he resisted due to Elysia's presence - he fell silent for a moment before looking at her again to repeat his earlier question, "Whether it's about making amends or love towards Elijah's mom, that's my issue. Why don't you want me to pursue her?"
Elysia was straightforward, "Because I hate seeing you torment yourself. I want you to be better, to stop dwelling on the past. We should look forward, don't you think?"
Tarquin was silent.
Elysia continued, "I think you're trapping yourself in a dead end and torturing yourself. You think you're in love with Elijah's mom, but if you think about it, you don't even know who she is. How can you love someone you've never met? Love appears in two forms: it either grows over time, or it's love at first sight. You've neither met her nor spent time with her. How could you possibly be in love?"
Tarquin's face darkened as Elysia went on, "What you feel for her isn't love; it's just a sense of responsibility, and it's all coming from you. Maybe she doesn't want you to take responsibility. Maybe she's moved on, forgotten about the past, and started a new chapter in her life. Your relentless search for her might not be a blessing but a burden to her."
Tarquin scowled, "You're not her. How do you know she doesn't want me to take responsibility?"
"...Women understand women. Plus, didn't I tell you? I've been through something similar. I wanted to avoid him at all costs, not be found by him." Tarquin looked skeptical, "The man who wronged you is looking for you?"
Elysia was taken aback, quickly clarifying, "I don't know if he's looking for me. I'm talking about how I feel. I just don't want him to find me."
Tarquin stared at her for a long moment before saying, "Your experience sounds a lot like Elijah's mom's."
Elysia sighed deeply, "..."
The four little ones thought: What do you mean 'sounds like'? It's exactly the same! Dad, you're clueless!
Tarquin looked at Elysia with a complex expression. Everything about her, from her experiences to the vibe she gave off, reminded him of Elijah's mom! If it weren't for the paternity test he had done, he might have thought she was Elijah's mother. Sadly, she wasn't.
"Your experiences might be similar, but unlike her, you kept your child by your side. She gave her child to me... Do you think she knows about Elijah?"
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"Hmm?"
Elysia realized she had been too assertive, hastily adding, "I'm thinking from a mother's perspective. I believe if she knew about Elijah, whom she carried for nine months, she wouldn't have the heart to abandon him."
Tarquin, with a cold expression, remained silent, "..."
Elysia added, "I genuinely suggest you forget about Elijah's mother. Stop looking for her and start a fresh, beautiful relationship. Live a good life for yourself."
Tarquin glanced at her, "You really want me to start a new relationship?"
"Yeah."
"Why?"
"I... I'm just suggesting it as a friend."
If he could start a new relationship, she'd feel less guilty. She wouldn't have to feel so remorseful about taking Elijah away and leaving him all alone.