Chapter 32: 32
Chapter 32: 32
"Don't run, please. I beg you." He pleads.
But I ignored it. I just walked straight away.
"Fuck, Jianna! Listen to me, I just want to apologize." He said, he’s voice was closer, maybe it had
gone down to the rock.
I turned to look at him. He is already down.
"For what, huh? Will anything change? Will it erase everything you’ve done, all the pain I've Content © NôvelDrama.Org 2024.
experienced?" I spat.
He shook his head.
"No. I know not bu-."
"So, why do I have to listen to you?" I cut him off.
"I want to be at ease, my guilt is eating me!" He shouted.
Is that the reason for it? Then, I don’t need it.
"No. You don't deserve that. It's only right that you be miserable like you did me." I said. "I don’t care
even if you die out of guilt."
I walked out. But it still chased me. He grabbed me by the waist and put me on his shoulder like a sack
of rice.
"Put me down, Russel!" I shouted, trying to punch him in the back. But it didn't budge and just walked
straight. He carried me behind the rocks.
"Fuck you! You're a fucking asshole!" I cursed.
I prayed to leave but he blocked the way. I got even angrier.
"Jianna, listen to me. I won't ask you to come back to me or love me again. Just listen to me, please. I
feel so sorry for you, listen to me." He pleaded.
I got even angrier.
"When I begged you, did you listen?" I asked.
Tears roll down my cheeks.
Here we are again.
"I'm so tired of crying, Russel. I want to be bad, but why is that? You're always taking that away from
me?" I added.
He said sorry, but I cried even more.
Is that all he knows to say? Sorry? What for?
I broke down and fell on the sands. I'm just sitting on the stress. I'm very tired.
"Just hear me out, please. After that ... then I won't bother you anymore." He said.
I looked at him. "I'm so tired of you, Russel." I said.
Pain showed in his eyes but didn't speak about it. He sighed deeply.
"I'm really sorry." He said. "I apologize for everything I’ve done to you. I know I've hurt you so much.
And I know that nothing I say won't diminish that. But I still want to say, I still want you to know so I can
move on and let you go."
It hurts.
"I was too confident. I became very confident because I know you love me so much. That even if I
make a mistake, I know you can forgive me too. I’m so pull of myself; I know."
"But, Jia. It also hurts me to see you cry because I hurt you again. I love you so much ..." He said.
I laughed.
Love? Fuck, is that how he loves?
"I know you won't believe it. But I really love you. I love you so much."