Love At Last

I’m caught by the tongue

Lily

Cayden still on the floor, I decided to do some more interrogation

“Why did you lie about your baby mama? Why did you say you were not going to marry her when you’re taking care of her and fattening her up like a sheep who’s about to be led to the slaughter? ”

“I never lied about her Lily. I did find out the same day you did. I had never even met her before I got here. I’m only taking care of her so I can do some tests when the child is finally brought into this world and see if the child is mine. That’s the only motive, Lily. If I want to be with anyone, it is you, only you. You’re the only one that I’m in love with and would want to share my life with. I just want a DNA test to see if it matches, that is all. No strings attached.”

“To see if it matches is all” For real? See how you’re saying it like it’s no big deal Cayden. In case you haven’t noticed, it is a big deal for me, okay? Have some feelings, goddammit! There were so many strings attached when you were swinging it with her, I’m sure she’d like to be hooked on you by the time the results are positive. So what happens if it matches? Do you have a baby mama? And where would I stand? In the mud? Can my life get any worse than it already is?”

“Please Lily, can you just get through this with me? Can you be a bit patient with me so that I can sort this out? I know I have a lot to prove to you. Please just give me this chance”

Everything and every attitude that Cayden put up reminded me of the memory of multiple pieces of evidence in brown envelopes that were stacked on my table at home, showing that everything Cayden just said to me was a lie and he had other plans. They included how I was going to be abandoned because I wasn’t even in any of those plans. Grandma turned her back on Cayden immediately after she learnt of the truth, she gave no room for apologies and I should just do the same too. She says I’ve endured enough from him and I deserve better. He was not the one meant for me.

“You know, every one of your actions irritates me Cayden. Of you can lie to me with a straight face now, what can’t you do later that would be worse than this?”

“I don’t get it, Lily, what do you mean?”

“What do I mean?” I scoffed “my father, brought evidence with him when he came to visit me just before I came here, which contrasted everything you’re saying now Cayden. He also mentioned that your “so-called” baby mama had told him that she was going to be married to you if it turns out to be your child so that there won’t be bad publicity for the company. Do you see that now? You, my dad, no difference. You did the same to me, only that my life was nearly destroyed and for this girl that you’ve gotten pregnant, it’s just greener pasture” my voice, high pitched…

“So, I ask you again Cayden, where the fuck do I stand? Did you plan on burying me? Or paying me off as you do to every other girl out there?”

“You have to believe my words over theirs Lily, it’s not true!”

“Oh nice, you’re one to shout, you must have thought me stupid when you met me, like someone you could easily ride over but let me tell you, I’m not that girl Cayden! I will not be manipulated into being used and dumped! Did you ever like me or love me as you say? Was any of it ever real? I feel like I was treated even worse than the other girls you sleep with. At least for them, it was just sex, just a one-night stand but with me, you took time, money and energy into making me fall for you. How does that make you feel, huh? Accomplished? You know what, you should throw a party Cayden, you caught the big fish! Bravo!”

At this time, I’d already been shouting at the top of my voice. The house echoed with my tiny voice. My vocal cords were extremely stressed from shouting and crying. Cayden was silent, he looked dumbfounded. I had said so much that he didn’t even know where to begin from. It was good, it means that I’d got himUpstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

“Lily, I’m glad you got that out of your system” He was trying so hard to thread with care.

“I want to try and break this down as much as I can; do I have a baby mama? Yes. Did I know before you found out? No. Do I love you with all I have? Yes. Did I manipulate you into loving me? No. Was all of this my plan from the jump? To make you fall in love with me? No. Am I getting married to the baby mama? No. Do I plan to elope with her? No. Do I want to stay with you? Yes. Am I lying to you right now? Definitely not. Was I truly in love with you? Hell yea! Do I regret having sex with you? No. If I ever lied to you? No Lily. I’ve been honest with you from the jump till now. I know this is a lot for you to take in and you can’t even tell if I’m lying but you’re just going to have to trust me on this one. Use the love you once had for me to cut me some slack at least, even if it’s just ten per cent.”

I didn’t want to respond to that. I was a trap and I’m not cutting him some slack, at least not yet.

“So what do you think is going to happen if this child was eventually yours?” I asked him