On every last nerve
DAMIEN:
It wasn’t a big deal with what occurred between me and Dabby, but I hated that such a mistake would happen between her and I. Worst of all, it wasn’t even a proper kiss and it still really felt so weird. In some ways, I could not explain.
I had my bath as soon as I entered the room, and scrubbed my lips clean for so long in front of the mirror. I changed my clothes too and wore a matching shoe.
I just drove out of the house after almost an hour had passed by, and went skating by myself in a faraway place. I came to town after a few hours had passed, and checked at the gym for an hour to work out.
When it was almost night already, I went to one of my favorite clubs around, to meet any new girl who would match my energy. Though I was trying to hit it off with a new girl I met at the club, it was kind of difficult to flirt easily with her the way I normally did with girls.
She made the first move to kiss me and I was feeling so irked by it, which made me push her away immediately. I told her to leave immediately, and had a few more drinks before leaving the club.
I felt so tired and stressed when I got back home, because I had not eaten well and had drunk massively too. That left me with the choice of drinking a large amount of milk, so that I wouldn’t end up ruining my health.
The next day was Sunday, and I remained indoors doing my work. I suddenly had nowhere to go in town even if my friends were calling me to hang out, and just surfed the internet by visiting every one of my social media pages.
Hours passed by before I realized that I had been on my phone for too long, and I ended up ordering food hoping that I was going to be able to eat it. I had blocked Dad and his wife from calling, because there was no reason for them to call if they were not around.
The day went like that till evening, and I didn’t even reply to my friend’s texts or meet them. And when I closed my eyes to sleep and opened it, it was Monday morning and time for school.
I got dressed for school, and left earlier than I usually did. There was no sign of Dabby, but it wasn’t my concern. If she wanted to remain hiding forever, then so be it.
The moment I pulled into the school parking lot, I could see her stupid friend standing in front of the school building. He looked like he was waiting for someone, and it was really annoying for me to see him there.
I was also still trying to recollect where I had seen him from before this school.
‘Did we go to the same middle school?’ I wondered.
I just stalked past him like he didn’t exist with my right hand tucked into my pants pocket, and I knew that he was dying so hard to ask me about Dabby. He couldn’t swallow his pride to ask me, but he couldn’t help but worry so much about his friend.
‘I liked that he must have been feeling so shitty and pressured.’
The ambiance in school was the same, and there was nothing new to look up to. Same faces, same friends, same fun. I haven’t joined the cheesy club that Dad wanted me to, and neither was I going to.
I knew he would throw a fit if he returned, but I didn’t care because I was used to his aggressiveness. I also wondered if he would begin to dictate Dabby’s life, the way he was already doing to mine.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
The first period soon started, and I was just sitting in class unfocused. I was always like that initially too without paying attention in class, but I always heard whatever the teacher would say no matter what. But, it seemed like I couldn’t even hear anything. Like my mind was in a maze.
It went on like that for the remaining three periods, and I just remained deaf to everything that went on in class. I didn’t usually attend all classes and just did however I liked, but I was kind of disturbed by the fact that I was in class and could not hear anything.
‘You don’t like school or these dumb classes. You should not be bothered.’ I told myself repeatedly.
As soon as the bell for lunch break rang, I picked up my bag, ready to leave the class and never to come back to school till the next day. However, I remembered that the class and project submission was just a few hours away from lunchtime.
I didn’t mind anyway and made my way to the cafeteria to cause a little trouble somewhere, and the next thing I realized was Dabby’s friend, walking towards where I was with a stern look on his face.
“Do you mind talking elsewhere?” He said to my face, and I was really pissed.
‘Like who the fuck does he think he is? Was he not supposed to be with his friend? or did Dabby tell him something stupid?’
I ignored him and just turned to leave, when he whispered something annoying in my ear. He asked if I would like to talk about me and Dabby, right on that spot where people could hear.
‘Fuck! I hate this guy!’