Chapter 39
Chapter 39
Hailey's POV
If Jaxon and I were human, we would be silly teenagers arguing about just a girl in class. This kiss, his
lips on mine and the effect the kiss was having on me would have us sneaking off to my room or even
his, while the parents were at work and we would probably find ourselves lost in euphoria and his hand
in my pants.
Jaxon would have it easy and all would be forgiven because what's one girl compared to the mountain
of problems that we will have to face, problems that were too big to ignore plus his big ass head? His
stubbornness was going to be a big problem but I would say he is human and turn the page but we
were wolves. I can't hide behind the fact that he is alpha born and his word is gold or bible.
Fighting my wolf, fighting myself, I reluctantly push him away. As much as I want to dive right back in to
how we were before the attack, we have so much to talk about.
"Why did you push me away?" Jaxon asks me and I walk to my bed, sitting on it and I pat the side for
him to sit.
Jaxon lets out a sigh but walks up to the bed and sits down.
"Jaxon, I want nothing more than to get back to kissing you and being happy again." I say to him.
"Then, don't stop me." Jaxon responds and I roll my eyes.
"That's the thing, we can't. I am hurt Jaxon, by you. You have hurt me and I can't just allow you back in
to my life as if you did not walk out of it yourself. You need to stop getting angry at things I have no
control over and going back to Azuri every time you and I don't get along. That shit hurt and it was
childish of you to do that." I say and he chuckles.
"I did not get back with Azuri." He says to me.
"You know what I mean." I say, getting up and walking away from the bed. Everything in me wants to
go back to the kiss, to have his lips on me again and forget about all that he has put me through. It is a
little sickening just thinking about it... so I had to create a little distance to get my mind right.
The need to forgive him, to just forget everything because here he was, sitting in my room telling me
not to stop. This mate of mine gave me the silent treatment for the duration of the time I was in his
home after our argument and even after I left, and all I want to do is have my body in his arms...
"Hailey, I am here, aren't I? Here, because I still want you and I will want you always. I agree, things got
out of hand but why should we argue over it? Let us just make up already." Jaxon says to me.
"You are asking me to deny my pain. To forget about how useless you made me feel, how weak I was.
You ridiculed me, getting angry over something I had zero control over and then insulting me right now
by telling me to get over it." I say and Jaxon stands up, taking my hands into his and looking into my
eyes.
"I am not saying that. All I am saying is that we can just move on. Let us not dwell on what we could
have done differently and just be in love again." He says to me and I smile, in pure disbelief.
"I know you are used to getting your way with many girls and I am no different because here you stand,
finding the audacity to say something like that to me and I am sure in most cases, you would get your
way... I mean, what is so bad about a little neglecting and a few words that make you an ass? I am
Jaxon fucking Gellar. I am the future alpha and I punish people, not the other way around. Just, come
on baby, let's not talk about how I am wrong, just kiss me." I say in a makeshift voice of a man.
He steps back, annoyed by what I said and how I said it but he says nothing, just looks at me funny.
"I am hurt, Jaxon! You made me feel small and I need you to understand that you are the cause. The
man I said yes to spending the rest of my life with, hurt me to the core. I need you to understand that
not hugging me back was insanely painful and it broke me. I need you to understand that me loving
you, does not excuse you of such asshole behavior and I refuse to just let things go unless I know you All rights © NôvelDrama.Org.
are aware of just how wrong you were and how your actions and words made me feel. You can't ever
put me through that again and if having such a conversation about my feelings, clearly putting you in a
bad spot is uncomfortable for you and you don't want to have it, then we will not make it. Why should I
still be with you if this is the way you handle things? We are supposed to be partners... your love for me
should have no conditions but here we stand because you want me to be some sort of doll that moves
in your direction and I am ready to do that for you, if you are willing to do the same for me." I say, tears
falling out of my eyes and the relief that I feel from finally being able to voice out my frustration and
hurt.
"Hailey..." Jaxon says my name, holding his hand out but I shake my head no.
"You are one world class asshole and I will not kiss you or be with you until you understand what you
did to me and how you made me feel. Get out of my room and go back to your pack, your Azuri, who
you throw in my face every chance you get." I speak.
"Hailey, Azuri and I are over and I was upset. I am sorry, I was not thinking straight." He says to me.
"Your head was screwed on so straight, that you were able to use her to try get a reaction out of me.
The fact that you gave her all your attention and ignored me, that was you thinking straight. You knew
what it would do to me and you went ahead with it..." I say, chuckling as I remember that night.
"I could say the same thing about you and your beta" Jaxon says to me and I laugh.
"Are you serious? Cayden is my beta. He has to stand by me no matter what. Azuri is just a warrior in
training... her place in your life is suspect and she should not be playing this close to the future alpha.
You can never compare the two. Her place in this pyramid scheme, is way at the bottom compared to
Cayden. Cayden is from an important family in my pack, can you say the same about your ex?" I ask.
Hating the fact that I was now speaking low of another girl but I need Jaxon to understand how I am
close to Cayden compared to his relationship with Azuri.
"She is my friend. We grew up together." He tries to explain but I cut him off.
"You are the future alpha and you have met your mate, asked her to be yours. The level of disrespect
to your position now that you are growing up and to me, that needs to stop. Azuri is a big girl; she can
handle the shift in places... what she cannot handle is your hot and coldness. Stop messing with us
both and if I see you laughing and being too close to her, I will have my father demand your father to kill
her." I say but it was really my wolf speaking, which shocks Jaxon as his mouth hangs open.