Sister sister
Maya
It had been four days since I got suspended from Milner Inc. Five days since I saw the man of my dreams. I can’t say it was easy because that would be one huge fat lie. Ever since the day we made love, Zane and I hadn’t talked, neither physically nor via phone.
Sometimes, he would send a text message asking if I was okay and I would reply on the affirmative even though that was far from the truth. He would go ahead to say he was glad I was okay and didn’t send another message for days. He probably didn’t want the conversation to get far enough that we had to talk about what we did on that day.
I had gotten used to hearing his beautiful voice and I missed it so much. I missed how he made me laugh. Being around him had turned into one of the highlights of my days, especially after I had got over him turning me into his assistant.
Harry had tried to be there for me as much as he could and I was really thankful. I wondered if he would still be that helpful if I told him that I had slept with Zane. He had even confessed his feelings for me and it had been so hard to turn him down. He was too nice for me to use as a rebound. Besides, I didn’t want to mess up our amazing friendship.
I had been spending a lot of time at St. Felicity’s and playing soccer but that was not enough distraction. Zane was the first person I thought of in the morning and the last before I went to bed. Try as much I did, I couldn’t stop thinking of the handsome man with the most charming smile in the whole world. Sometimes I thought of calling him so we could talk about everything but I didn’t want to seem desperate because it’d push him further away. I was desperate but he didn’t have to know.
I had hidden my feelings for him for so long that it was now extremely hard to ignore them. But, I knew that if he cleared up things, I’d be able to move on. All I wanted is for him to say something and not ignore the issue at hand. It was tearing me apart. I couldn’t understand how I had fallen in love so fast, with a man I barely knew.
Falling in love at first sight had never been my thing. Hell, I had never believed it was actually possible. However, my strong feelings for Zane Carrington were telling me otherwise. The fact that he had gone silent after us having sex made me feel hurt and reduced my self-esteem to zero. I tried to convince myself that he was a jerk who didn’t deserve my love but that was all in vain. It couldn’t stop me from thinking about him and wanting him all day. Since I was idle with no work, I found myself feeling hornier than usual.
Seeing the children play with a ball under the sun made me forget my problems for the time being. I stood up and headed to the other side of the resort with swings overlooking the river. I didn’t feel completely safe because I was aware that if that thick rope broke for some reason, I’d fall down the small cliff and roll into the river. There were no crocodiles around there but it looked very deep. But what was life without a few risks?
It was a beautiful sunny day and the flowers were looking exceptionally good. I had sponsored an outing for the visually impaired children from St. Felicity’s. Although some of them were partially blind, they all needed special care. All of them including the totally blind were very happy and brimming with excitement. I was sure they could feel the beauty of the place without the noise of the city. I was glad that I did it because it gave me a sense of fulfillment.
In the darkest days of life, doing something good for others can make you feel better. Also you stand a chance of receiving blessings from God. In today’s world, helping others is so underrated.
Looking at the children made me hate myself for being selfish. How could I think that I had problems? Mine were nothing compared to those they faced. The children came from homes that barely had anything and the worst was that they had sight problems. Imagine what it feels like not to be able to see the face of the people you love, the beauty of nature and so many things.
I wished they could see how beautiful the rain was as it fell from the sky and how glorious the stars looked at night. I wished they could see the sun’s glow and the rays that filled our skins with warmth. It was so sad. None of my problems could compare to those. I should learn to count my blessings instead of feeling depressed about one small thing that isn’t going right for me.
I closed my eyes and smiled, glad that I was able to bring a smile to their faces. For now, it didn’t matter how heartbroken I felt. The most important thing was that those children were having the time of their life. Children deserved to have all the happiness in the world, regardless of the circumstances they were born to.Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.
My phone rang and my sister’s name appeared on the screen. She was probably calling because some man broke up with her. She was always falling in love too soon and ended up getting her heart broken. Ignoring the phone, I continued to think of my life. I didn’t know how I was going to survive life without work for the remaining days. I had been working every week day from nine to five since I finished college so I knew that it was going to be increasingly hard for me to adjust to a jobless life style. I couldn’t go on outings every day.